Stepping into the courage it takes to breathe goodbye

Stepping into the courage it takes to breathe goodbye

The last several days frosted an intricate pattern of heart break over my eyes.  Friday, 15 people from the Humboldt Broncos hockey franchise died in a tragic bus collision just hours from my front door.  More than 100 people killed Saturday in Syria, between air...
Relaxing into the rising work of God…

Relaxing into the rising work of God…

Rising should be the easy part, no?  After the fear, the suffering, the darkness, the hard work, and the waiting, I feel like rising should be effortless.  Despite that, I feel weighted down by resistance to rising.  This should not be a surprise; at this same time...
Clinging to the promise of joy in the midst of grief

Clinging to the promise of joy in the midst of grief

Last night, I removed my sister’s name from the Christmas address list.  I was clinging to the letters of her name typed into a cell in a spreadsheet.  I pressed the delete key slowly and then moved her children to new lines.  Tears streamed down my cheeks.  She died...
Allowing it to be well with my soul

Allowing it to be well with my soul

Things are well at our house, at least when it comes to cupcakes.  Every fall, our family picks coloured leaves, sharpens pencils, and gets ready for the first of two clustered birthday seasons.  We make a little banner for the kitchen, tie balloons to the appropriate...
Lost is a place, too…

Lost is a place, too…

I am lost. The weird thing about this lost, however, is that I am lost in the most familiar places – my home, my relationships, my life. One thing has changed, but that one thing has changed everything. Lost is a place too, a place of feeling unsettled, disoriented,...